Resume of the author
The author's university period
Zhou Lianchun, pseudonym zhoulian village, born in Dongtai, Jiangsu Province. Graduated from Nanjing University in 1982. A lifelong teacher.
My college dream
Author: Zhou Lianchun
When I graduated from high school, my math teacher said to me in front of my colleagues in the office, "if a person like you doesn't go to university, who will go to university?" That's when I thought about the word "University".
At that time, a picture of the movie "the break" made my blood boil - Jiang Danian, the villain in the movie, who made trouble for the farmer's son to go to school, asked him what he was qualified to go to university? In the movie, the positive character pulls up his hand, holding it high and roaring: "this calluses full of hands is qualification!"!
With calluses? It makes my heart bloom. What a good era, it gives me hope: as long as hard work, hard work, university dream, will come true!
It was only later that I realized that my dream was so far away! 1、 Passed primary and secondary schools
I went to school when I was 5 years old, not because I was smart, but because adults wanted to take part in the great leap forward, put me at home, not at ease, and find a place to deposit. And from the initial "deposit" to the next year after year, I actually graduated from primary school! At that time, in the sixth grade, there were 26 students in the class who persisted, with different ages. The oldest one is 10 years older than me, and the last two are two years older than me - my nephew. I'm only 11 years old. I'm the youngest with the best grades.
I'm looking forward to going to Wanzhong (full-time middle school) in the town where the commune is located. My grades are good, and my composition is often read out by the teacher as a model text in the whole class; and arithmetic is also good. Once, a new arithmetic teacher came to take the final examination. The topic was a little difficult, and the whole class passed me alone. For this reason, the headmaster criticized the teacher for putting out a question to make the students difficult and gave them a dismal examination.
But I didn't expect that I received the admission notice of "agriculture middle school" (half cultivation and half study in agriculture middle school). It turns out that it's very difficult to finish the middle school. There are only two students who can finish the middle school. One is the son of the captain and the other is the head teacher's relatives. Only then did I realize that the society is not as beautiful as it is written in the book and said by the teacher. It's fantastic for a poor child like me to hope to go on the road of expectation by virtue of his excellent academic performance.
It has not been a long time since China went to agriculture, "Cultural Revolution" broke out. After that, I went to school just for a while, but I couldn't go to school. In class, I worked in farmland. Unconsciously, four years passed in junior high school (Mingming said that "the school system should be shortened, education should be revolutionized", but our junior high school has been extended from three years to four years), and then returned to our own team for two years. The whole middle school didn't learn much cultural knowledge, but learned countless political quotations. The only ancient article read in a semester is the excerpt of "fighting Tigers with Wusong" in "outlaws of the marsh". One of the sentences is that Wusong, who has drunk wine, goes to Jingyanggang, "Wusong is walking, look at the wine pouring up", which is read by the teacher as "Wusong is walking, look at the barrel up". We were dumbfounded. After high school, in the first math class, the ferocious teacher began to talk about solving the equation, "the first step of the equation: Factoring!" I quietly asked my deskmate, "what is factorization?"
Muddleheaded middle school graduated, but also took a high school diploma, in the countryside, that is the young intellectuals.
After graduation, a new life began, that is, facing the Loess and facing the sky, and starting the labor life of orthodox farmers. However, at that time, I still had a beautiful dream in mind - going to college. Don't say it in the movie. You can get it with one hand. I know that every farmer has his own calluses. It's not good to rely on this alone, so I also try to show different abilities and levels from all aspects.
I'm not short and have strength since I was young. Although I'm not smart, at least in our production team, whether it's old or young men or big girls and little daughters in law, there are few people who dare to challenge me. Planting seedlings, cutting wheat, sowing cotton, sailing, picking manure and digging rivers There is no one to praise or disparage; Tantou criticism meeting, a blackboard newspaper, a model opera aria, write a three and a half sentences, everything can show a face. According to the criteria for selecting talents at that time, universities seemed not far away.
In the group, the first one who was recommended to go to university was a substitute teacher. After an interview, he was "returned". According to himself, the interviewing teacher asked, "what are the three peaches of cotton?"? He immediately gave the answer: big peach, medium peach and small peach. I know he is wrong. It should be: Fuqian peach, Futao and Qiutao. I think, what a simple topic, if only I could go!
The second year, the third year All the recommended ones were called back.
Although the villagers exclaim every time: if you can go, you must go. However, I have never been recommended.
In fact, this kind of twists and turns after I graduated from primary school, when I received the notice of going to middle school, I already understood. It's just that there are still some infatuations and delusions. As the saying goes, it's: "private children (illegitimate children) want milk!" 2、 Forced marriage
I'm also a man of "ways". The team secretary is my uncle. If you can get Uncle's care, then it is not impossible to be recommended to school. But I offended uncle Secretary! Because my uncle wants to be a big media and introduce me, and I firmly disagree!
At that time, although I could not say that I was arrogant, I was full of fantasy and full of scenery. The one introduced by the secretary is quite different from the one I imagined. I dare not compliment him.
At that time, the Secretary spent almost a year doing my ideological work. He came to me in three days or two, or asked me to write a speech, write a major criticism column, or accompany him to the commune to report work and help him sort out the materials And every time we talk, we will end up with marriage. In the meantime, there is no need to resort to the tactics of coercion and inducement.
Secretary is a person with ability, ability and eloquence. He is an advanced model of the whole county. He used to be a big tree to lean on, but I didn't.
Secretary is a persistent person, I don't hesitate to spend so long to brainwash me, I hope I go according to his way. But I, suckling, but also a hit the south wall still do not look back.
They are equally resolute in their attitude, but the power contrast is not one or two grades.
He is the leader of a team of two or three thousand people in production, life and even fate. Because I didn't obey him for a long time, I could feel all kinds of pressure. Only those who come to do my ideological work include almost all the new and old cadres with real power, the old peasants with high moral integrity, and my neighbors, relatives and friends. At the beginning, I carried it by myself and didn't tell anyone, but in fact, it became an open secret in the whole team. I also have many supporters, my friends, my teachers, educated youth of the production team They all support me in various ways, either overtly or covertly: fight him to the end, don't want that woman! However, it didn't last long, and I found that those who had been supporters began to deliberately alienate me and keep a distance with me.
One day, Gong Qizhi, a primary school teacher, asked me to have dinner. Mr. Gong is not only my teacher, but also my sister's teacher. He speaks Chinese well and can write newspaper articles (later, he also published several novels). At that time, he was one of my two strongest supporters, and another was Yang Hong, an educated youth. Of course, I'm glad Miss Gong invited me to dinner. At the end of the evening, I hurried home to wash my face and change clothes, and then pedaled on my bike.
As soon as I entered the palace, I found Yang Hong there.
"Let's have a good drink tonight for the three of us. I've sent my wife and children to my mother-in-law's house! " Miss Gong said as she asked me to sit down.
After three glasses of wine, the words will come to the point. Mr. Gong said: "little brother, I discussed with Yang Hong about you. It's very difficult to deal with it. We won't hide it from you. The secretary knows that we have a good relationship with you. He looks for both of us and displays his cards. In short, it's easy to say what you want to say when you answer his request. If you still push three blocks four, you can't blame him. He will let you die in his feet! "
Forced marriage to this extent, but also through the blatant threat of others, there are some unexpected.
In the hundreds of conversations with me, the Secretary has expressed all kinds of meanings clearly. The most classic metaphor is: a towering tree, straight, thick and strong, which can be made into a beam or a pillar when it is laid down; it can also be placed behind the overcast mountains, with wind and rain, frost and moth eaten, and finally, decayed, rotted, even without fire power. A crooked branch, fold it back, trim it, put it on the fire and bake it, then it can be used as a labor tool I remember the first time I heard this metaphor, a cold air went straight through the forehead from the spine, and my heart and back were cold.
Now it's better and worse. We don't use metaphors and examples. We can see that it's really urgent to intimidate directly.
Yang Hong said that he consulted with Mr. Gong many times and thought there was no good way. It's not a hard top thing. Top down, you will really fall into his hands for the rest of your life. Think about it. Can we compromise? Let's agree first. There's room for maneuver. Then, when you are recommended to go to university, or when you go out as a soldier, you will not be afraid of him. When wing bone is hard, turn around and fight with him again
To be honest, this was the best plan that could be thought of at that time. And it also contains my dream - the possibility of going to university.
Unfortunately, I'm not the schemer. This meal, in fact, means that my best friend, the most ardent supporter, has also compromised. I have become a lonely man, and I have no supporters. From then on, I have to fight alone. What is a good word for war? It's actually a struggle.
At that time, our team graduated from high school with me, there were 39 people. In one year, some have become substitute teachers, some have joined social organizations, some have become barefoot doctors, some have become accountants, custodians and technicians of production teams There's really nothing. I'm the only one who does farm work all day long. Moreover, due to the Secretary's "care", the cadres of the production team will arrange me to go to any work that is the hardest and the dirtiest!
Fortunately, the farmers are kind and simple. We all know that I am oppressed and bullied. I am not afraid of power and prefer to bend. I still respect and appreciate them very much. With their comfort, although I am bitter and tired, I am not decadent or sad, and I can still enjoy every day.
Of course, there are some different people.
My production team is located in the main road of transportation. The east-west and North-South roads divide the production team into four parts from the middle. In this way, I do farm work on both sides of the road most of the time. The advantage is that people come and go all day long on the road, and there will be some strange things